Broken Pieces

I need to learn some things just can’t be undone! I have such a desire to have that close knit family that shares in each others highs and lows, they celebrate the good and the bad together. I know others have that, for them I am extremely happy. I just do not know how to fix things any more. I do not know how to make a family, just that, a family! My heart breaks, I wonder do they even realize it, or do only I feel it. I just do not know any more. I need to figure out how to just stop caring, for I fear if I do not do that all I will feel is the broken pieces of my heart.